Monday, February 10, 2014

A Running Journal

This will be a running journal of all the happenings while trying to clean up mom's home and getting it ready to list with a Realtor -


Today is Friday, January 31, 2014 8:30 a.m.

Mom passed on Friday, November 8th of 2014.

Mom and JP had been together for 17 years before she died. I have their anniversary date wrote down as January 6th of 1996. I'm not sure this date is correct, seems like JP told me differently a while back .. but it's close enough I guess. So I don't know if it's 15 or 17 years.

for my own information - *** JP's sister's name are Toni and Candy. Toni is the one who is dealing with breast cancer. Candy's husband is very sick. Mom trusted and liked both of John Paul's sisters but NOT the twins, his nieces - Patty McBane and Peggy Rodriguez. I call these twins 'girls' but they are actually older grown women. Maybe around my own age. Mom warned me several times to watch out for those twins. She never allowed them in her home because she said they would take any and any and everything they could get their greedy hands on. Cari tells me they are on drugs. Meth to be exact.


Mom and John Paul Rodriguez (JP) were not legally married. The state of New Mexico doesn't recognize common law marriage. I've become the legal Representative of mom's estate and I'm trying to follow mom's wishes as to what she wanted me to do when she passed. She and I talked often. Almost every single day. She didn't have a will made out so it's been difficult and we've had to hire a lawyer to help us get though the steps.

Mom once told me she and JP were more like room mates than a married couple. She actually used the word "room mates". She was celibate for 10 years and not by choice. She often told me, sometimes while crying, that she missed dad (Ray) and how he would just grab and hug her, missed his touch and how he loved her. She said that JP wouldn't hold hands, hug or kiss or ever reach over to touch or pat her arm. He would clam up and refuse to talk when she tried to talk to him about it. She told me several times that there was no love in their relationship. Thinking of it breaks my heart even now and yes, angers me too.

She once angerly told me that if JP just wanted to be "room mates" he can start washing his own clothes and cleaning his own bath room! lol. Mom did quit washing his clothes but she had to clean his bathroom because he wouldn't do it. Mom told me that he never offered to pay for anything. It angered her that he wouldn't offer to pay for anything when she wrote out checks for all the bills. Mom paid for everything. It was maybe the last year (before she passed) that she pushed for him to start paying for half of the bills but there were times he still wouldn't do it without her having to ask him. Mom also told me, more than once, that JP is not always the nice person he seems around everyone else. That JP thinks only of himself.

I did see JP as a nice, calm, mellow, easy going person. Pleasant to be around. But evidently there was a side we didn't see when he and mom were home alone. But I guess that can be said for all of us. We're all usually a little nicer around company. I do know that he took care of the vehicles, kept a garden, watered plants in the yard, weed eated and mowed, and was good with his hands .. repairing things around the house and making things out of wood. He loved animals and spoiled his dog rotten. He loved the deer and a squirrel that would come visit the home often. He did a lot of the running to the post office for mom when she sold her eBay stuff. And he helped with the cooking. Mom probably wouldn't have been so upset about having to clean his bathroom, washing his clothes or even having to pay all the bills by herself .. if JP had just shown any kind of physical love/contact to her. And I'm not talking about sex. Mom finally lost interest in it herself as the years went by. JP had it made living with mom. It just kills me that he couldn't find it in himself to cuddle or touch her. She was afraid to ask him to leave because she was afraid to be even more alone. By herself in the home. She was always worried about thugs coming with the intent to harm her.


Scribbled in mom's hand writing on a piece of paper she stuck in her journal - "there can be nothing happy for the person over whom some fear always looms".

***I'm so sorry, Cute. I really am. I love you mom. ~ Your Sweet Tater***


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Mom had told me she wanted me to sell her home when she passed. Mom told me JP already knew this and that he would take his things and leave the home peacefully when the time came. That he would go live with his family or find a place of his own. These were mom's exact words to me. She had said this to me several times during our conversations about her passing. John Paul would take all his personal stuff, his tools and his truck and go. That didn't happen. There's something just not right (Godly) about kicking a 70-ish (he was a couple years younger than mom) year old man out of the only home he's lived in for the last 17 years. So my heart isn't at ease unless I know he has a place to call home and will be ok. Cari has said JP can move in with them several times. That was the direction we were going. Cari has always called JP DAD. Here lately though she seems to be unsure of what to call him. I think because I myself have never called  him DAD. I don't think of him as dad. He's always just been mom's companion and I've always just called him JP.

Mom's wishes were that Cari's home be paid off when we sold mom's home. She worried Cari wouldn't be able to keep up with the payments and end up losing her home.

Mom told me that whatever money was left after the house was sold would be mine. And the money in her bank account was mine as well. That's not what I told Cari though. It's a good heart though right, Cute?


When Cari and I talked about how things would be done .. I gave Cari a scenario of how we would divide the money. I said that IF the home sold for one hundred thousand she'd get 45 thousand dollars to pay off her home. I'd get 45 thousand dollars cash (to match the amount she got to pay off her home) and then we'd split the rest right down the middle after splitting the realtor's fee and whatever other cost there might be. We'd also split mom's saving account money after we totaled up how much all the bills came to and we both paid half of those. The bills so far have been - taxes on the home, insurance on the home, and medical bills have come in that the lawyer wants to see first. The lawyer has said he might be able to talk them down on the fees. Pat was paid back (1,553.69) for the lawyer fee we had to pay up front. Pat paid the full cost of the mortuary fee (2,215.16) to have mom cremated and he wanted to pay for that. But he wanted to be reimbursed for the lawyer fee. JP didn't pay for anything. I seem to remember him asking Pat if he needed help though. Not sure to be honest.

We told JP he could stay at the house until we sold it. We didn't want it sitting empty for vandalism. We wanted him to help with the up-keep. Mowing and weed eating, watering the plants on the deck and stuff in the yard. Keep the house clean and help us haul trash from the yard and out of the garage during our hauling days of cleaning stuff up and maybe some painting. He is living in the home rent free. Mom's home was free and clear until she mortgage the house to buy Cari's home. Cari pays that mortgage. That was iffy and a lot of times mom let it slide. Mom often had to pay for Cari's home insurance too. But before mom passed, Tony (Cari's husband) got on disability and was back paid for a lot of months while waiting for it to kick in. Long story short, Cari paid everything she owed back to mom. But it was a big source of anger, resentment and frustration for mom having to keep up the payments on both Cari's home and home insurance. Anyhooo, so all JP had to pay for was his utilities of water, electric and gas. And his TV/comast, phone and the internet and help keep the place in order while he lives there.

Cari and I had agreed that JP could have mom's truck and car. He was the one that kept them in good running order. And we wanted to show him that we weren't going to just take everything. I told him that I would turn the vehicles over into his name when I got the letter stating I was the Representative of the estate. The other truck and the motorcycle and moped/scooter belonged to JP and were already in his name. Cari and I had also agreed on other items we would allow JP to have. We told him if there was something special he might like to have he could ask and Cari and I would discuss if either of us wanted what he might ask for. If not, he could have. The other items we agreed to give JP were -

Mom's camper and the 5th wheel. The large entertainment center and tv. The recliner he always sat in. The king size bed they slept in. The video recorder and mom's computer. I really wanted mom's computer. She and I talked together via the computer EVERY SINGLE DAY. I wanted all her pictures of all her flowers too. I was the one that took care of the computer when something went wrong. It was one of the few larger items I wanted. But JP kind of bulked when I said I wanted it .. so I said he could have it. It's just wasn't worth a fight. And of course he could have all those things that we knew was his to begin with .. His tools, guitar, Nintendo, video games, clothes, shoes etc.


Cari suspected, but no proof, that the twins (JP's nieces) had been at the house so then we told JP that no one else was allowed at the home while he was living there. Especially the twins. (more on the reason why below) We told him he could go visit his family at their homes but that NO ONE ELSE was allowed in mom's home. We explained that it was asking for trouble for everyone involved if Cari and I suspected something had gone missing during our clean ups. We felt it best that no one else be in that home. This really upset JP. He was angry that he couldn't have people over to the house. I understood. But again, with the exception of the utilities, he's living there rent free and he knows we will put the home up for sale when we get the place cleaned out. We even told him to start thinking about getting on the HUD list and apply for food stamps since he gets very little income on his disability checks. I'm thinking it's best we get him out of the home soon and moved over to Cari's.


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Jp later mentioned how lonely he was and that he needed help cleaning the house. And help with his truck. He recently bought an 800 dollar transmission to put in it soon after mom's passing. He has had this truck torn apart 6 or 7 times in the past and put together without anyone's help. My thought was .. he can clean the house once a week without help. He's living there free. I'm pretty sure this was just an excuse to push for the twins to be at the house. Again, Cari suspected the twins had been there already. Things on the deck ledge appeared to be missing. Plants, pots, just things mom had on that deck etc. And things ARE missing looking at the pictures we had taken shortly after mom passed. It was the Lawyers advice to take pictures of everything in and outside of the home. In case something DID go missing. But we don't know if JP moved some of the deck items to the garage or not. We haven't asked him yet. This is EXACTLY the whole reason why we didn't want anyone else at the home. It's terrible to be thinking someone is taking things or putting JP on the spot and asking him if they can have stuff. I think it would be hard for JP to tell someone NO.

Another red flag was that JP wanted Cari to wait before she came to the house for him to come back from town. He told her this a couple of different times she wanted to go up there. Even after I told JP that Cari didn't need his permission to go to the house he would still tell her to wait until he came back when she called to let him know she was coming. At one point Cari said the house was a mess and stunk bad. But the next time she was up there it was in good order and she could smell that air freshener had been sprayed. Ashtrays were on the deck showing he'd been smoking outside now. A couple of times JP made it a point to mention that he had vacuumed. In hindsight I can't help but wonder, have those twins been up at the house most of time!? Doing the cleaning and making themselves at home afterwards? I notice that on JP's facebook page he was playing a lot of facebook games. Was it really all him or was it the twins?

**** Side note - At one point I had to ask JP to quit smoking in the house. The envelope of mom's bills he mailed to me reeked of smoke. I worry it might make the home harder to sell if it reeks of smoke. Mom herself wouldn't let him smoke in the house. She had quit smoking 6 or 7 years ago. So this wasn't a new rule for JP and shouldn't have been hard to do. He didn't balk too much but I sensed he didn't like it.


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I'm terribly emotional. JP has broken the only rule we asked of him and allowed the twins, his nieces (Patty McBane and Peggy Rodriguez) in mom's home. Mom never trusted these girls and never allowed them in her home when she was alive. She told JP he could go visit them but they could not come to her house. Mom told me several times to watch out for them (when she passes) because they will come into the house and take everything if they can. Cari tells me they are on drugs. meth is what she said.


JP had taken mom's truck over to Cari's house when they hauled the smaller camper to her place. We are STILL waiting for Silverback Towing Company to call us and let us know when they can move the 5th wheel to Cari's home. Anyhow, JP goes to Cari's house WITH THE TWINS to get his jack that he left in mom's truck. Cari was totally caught off gaurd and stunned that he would even bring them to her home knowing how we felt about them. They got out of the truck and the twins say their condolences. In the same breath they are asking Cari if they can have a tall metal shelf she had on her deck!! JP is standing right there with these twins. No couth at all! It hasn't been a full 3 months since mom's passing. WHO DOES THIS?? Cari had taking the metal shelf from mom's home to keep it for me and left it on her deck because it was dusty. When Cari told her she couldn't have it because it was mine the twin laughs and said "I had to try".  Then they ask her if she has any extra material to give them! They then tell Cari they were going back to the house .. meaning mom's house!! To help clean the yard for their Tio (Spanish word for uncle)! Cari was so angry and stunned she couldn't speak. She told them she and Tony where going back over to the house themselves as they had been hauling stuff from mom's all day. Cari and Tony where just speechless. They could NOT believe the audacity! JP must have never told them they were not allowed at the home. Or maybe he had and they came anyways! I don't know. Cari and Tony went back over to mom's house and when Cari walked into the computer room and one of the twins is sitting there playing games on the computer!! The other one is out in the garage with JP and I guess it was her that asked if she could have the TV in the garage! The other twin came out of the house and JP asked her to get some soap for him and she went back in and got it ... she knew right where stuff was without having to ask where it was! I came unglued when Cari called to tell me all of this. I called JP and gave him a good piece of my mind and told him that I wanted him out of the house NOW! Pat had called him first from work and said the same exact thing. I told JP to pack only his personal belongings and go live with his nieces! And that for right now all the items we told him he could have, stays put including all the vehicles except for mom's car which he needed to get around. But that he could NOT take anything else from the home but his personal belongings. He couldn't have mom's truck. Cari and Tony had to stay at mom's house for two nights not knowing if JP and those girls would try to come back when she was gone and start hauling stuff out. Tony is a very sick man and in constant pain and Cari has constant hip pain and is absolutely exhausted from all that she has been doing ... This crap was just too much.


Previously JP had told us that he and his nieces (the twins) were supposedly looking to rent a trailer together (I'm sure he was upset with the rule of not being allowed to have anyone there at the home.) at Stage Coach Trailer Park when they all had paychecks around the 3rd of February. Last I knew they were going to go look at a few of them and decide on one to rent. Cari had asked the twins while they were there at her home shamelessly asking for stuff, when they were moving and they acted like they didn't know what she was talking about. One said something like "yeah, someone needs to take care of our poor tio". Mom took care of JP for 17 years! It angers me to think of what he might be telling his family now! Cari and I agree that these girls are just trying to take JP for a ride. They want his little paycheck for themselves and the addictions they have. JP has been drunk with them for the last few days and driving in mom's car. He takes some pretty heavy drugs on of which is 80mg of oxycodone. We really worried about his driving all the way to Central in his condition.

Ok, so JP leaves mom's house drunk, in mom's car, with some of his personal belongings. The next day he call's Cari and tells her he needs to borrow mom's truck that's still at her home and packed with stuff he had put in it, to get all of his stuff. Evidently he didn't remember (or pretended not to) that I told him he couldn't have any of the items including any of the vehicles we had told him he could have before all this stuff went down. Except mom's car so he can get around. He told Cari he needed help getting his torn down truck too. Cari questioned him 'what stuff' do you need to get. He told Cari all the stuff we gave him and his torn down truck. None of this set well with me! It seems to me too that JP just wants anything he can gets. No cuth about any of it either. Cari called and told me all of this, I was at the doctors office getting my scripts, I called him while in the parking lot. I laid into him and I told him he was not allowed to go back to that home to get anything! I asked him do you understand me? I told him he was lucky that he even had mom's car to drive in. I told him how I felt about the twins and asked him HOW could they ask Cari for anything when we've just lost our mom not even 3 months ago. I asked him WHO does that shit JP??! How rude and uncaring of our feelings! I told JP he knew better and he blatantly disregarded our wishes of those twins not being allowed to be at mom's home. JP started apologizing and was very soft spoken. He said he knows he messed up and messed up big. He said he was sorry several times. I was still angry and told him that item for item he was getting all the bigger expensive stuff of mom's! All the vehicles and larger items in the house .. and asked him .. you're not happy with that or what? I told him I had taken very little items compared to what he was getting. I started talking about all the stuff Cari told me the twins said to her over at her home and asked him how can those girls just ask Cari if they can have things? And HOW can they go into mom's home and make themselves at home and play on the computer? Ask for a TV that was out in the garage!? Who the HELL does that! He apologized more and during my conversation one of the twins takes the phone from him and starts telling me it was her that was on the computer at the house and she's sorry I told her they were both RUDE and that neither of them are ever allowed to go to mom's or Cari's home again. The other grabs the phone and I told her the same thing. I asked if she understood what I was saying and told her I would call the cops if I found out they were up there again. I said a bunch more stuff to those girls and JP but I don't remember all of it now. Honestly, what a bunch of greedy low life's.


Another side note as I don't know if I said it up there or not .. I had to tell JP I was taking mom's fifth wheel back from him. He had mentioned to Cari he wanted to sell them both. Or rent one out and sell the other. Or something to this effect. I just felt is was best to have the fifth wheel moved and left on Cari's property. So when JP moved over to Cari's the 5th wheel would be set up for him to have some place else to go to when he needed to get away from Cari and Tony or when Cari and Tony needed some alone time away from him. He was ticked that I was  reneging on the 5th wheel. I told him I didn't want it for myself to make money off of. I explained what the plan was and told him it was for HIM that I was doing this.

Second day now and Elliot Key of Silverback Towing couldn't haul the 5th wheel for us. Very frustrating! I would love to just get this job done with already!


I'm an emotional mess and hate myself and thoughts at times. Some of those thoughts going through my head ...

How Godly is it to kick a 70 something year old man out of the only home he's been living in for the last 17 years? And for what? So we can sell mom's home and pay off Cari's mortgage? Don't we ALL have rent or mortgages to pay for? For me to have a little extra money (if any is left from the sale) when the home is sold? Is it worth the misery of one person to do all of this to? I'll just keep plowing through it. It was mom's wishes though. For me to sell the home and pay off Cari's first. And she told me several times to watch out for JP and those twins. For that matter ... she also told me to watch out for Cari too! lol. Thanks Cute! I'll get it done though. God willing, it WILL get done.. I love you mom.



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2/1

Cari called me last night and said JP showed up with head held low apologized for everything saying he knew he had messed up and he wanted to get away from his nieces (the twins) and wanted to know if he could still come and live with her and Tony. Cari told him absolutely and explained that we din't want all of this to happen the way it did. That we hated being put in this ugly situation of having to come down on him and telling him to get out of mom's house. She explained that we were still moving the 5th wheel up to her house for HIM. Not for us to sell and make money  but so HE would have another place to go to while living with them. Cari is emotionally and physically beat. JP is too I'm sure. And well .. me, it's all I can do to keep it together. Up at 3 a.m. this morning. Cried silent tears on my pillow unti 5:30. At which time Pat woke up and held me close. What would I ever do with my Pat. I love you Tune. I did finally drift back off.


Pat called Elliot at Silverback Towing and told him we really need to get the 5th wheel hauled and told Elliot we need to know within the hour if he can get the job done or not. Elliot called me back about 15 minutes later saying the truck was running but not moving. He apologized to me and told me they'd been working on the truck but just having problems getting it going. He told me to give Charlie of G & G Towing a call as they had more than one truck. Pat called and left a message with the woman who answered the phone and told her to have Charlie call him back on his cell phone. Pat was headed to Willcox. Cari calls me and says they want to go with Tony's friend. The same friend I didn't want to go with in the fist place because I worried that this friend might not be able to pay for the 5th wheel if there was any damage, a wreck or whatever. I told Cari that Pat is still waiting on a call back from Charlie from G & G towing. But Tony still wanted his friend to do it and Cari told me he was the one that hauled the 5th wheel to mom's house when she bought it and needed it hauled to her home. I didn't know all of this at first or did I? I'm a little miffed (but still emotionally from all the crap JP pulled) so, whatever. I just want to get the job done! It didn't sit well with me either that JP had told Cari to tell me that he'll pay for the haul and I can cut him a check when we go up there. I can't help but think .. Oh really?! All this crap JP pulled and he hasn't paid for a damn thing and he wants me to cut him a check for the trailer we are having hauled to Cari's so HE himself can stay in it? Yep, some of that stuff mom told me is coming through loud and clear. Watch yourself Jode. I think I will put that 5th wheel in my name after all. It's supposedly going to be hauled at 9:30 in the morning to Cari's. I hope so .. We'll see.

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2/2/2014

The 5th wheel was hauled over to Cari's today. Sure glad to have that done. Cost me 100.00. Not bad really but I was a bit irked that JP told Cari to tell me he would pay for it and I can cut him a check when I get to Silver tomorrow. ??? LOL! We hauled this 5th wheel to Cari's for JP to have another place to escape to if things got a little too hectic for him over there. He hasn't helped us with a damn thing! Lord please help me keep my head and heart in the right place and my feet on the right path. ugh!

*ok, I know I said this just yesterday after re-reading it. But is it really any wonder that I've spaced it? lol. He's a piece of work.

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February - 3,4, and 5th (Pat and I stayed at mom's while in Silver)

We went to Silver and the first thing we did was drop off a truck load of stuff with Cari. She wanted all the stuff I was going to take to Good Will for selling at a flea market or for yard sales to help make ends meet. Seems they are always broke. JP didn't say 5 words to me. Funny that he gave Cari a big ole apology but didn't say 5 words to me. Oh well. Someone has to be the 'bad guy'. I really hate that he put me in that situation. But I'm glad he's out of mom's home now. I hope things go good for Cari, Tony and JP while they all are living together. I know how hard it can be. Pat and I have Pat's dad living here with us. Cari has always called JP - Dad. It was Cari who had suggested JP move in with them from the start. Before all the crap happened. And we were trying to get him set up to live comfortably with them. I have feelings (mostly mixed feelings right now) for JP too but I don't think they are as strong as Cari's is/was. Probably becasue of how close mom and I have been and of all the things she has told me about JP over the years.

We all drove over to mom's house to start cleaning the garage. While there, JP squabbled with Pat about the water bill he had sitting on the kitchen table. Since we threw him out of the house he felt he didn't need to pay for the water. But it's water he used for that month! The bill was only 18.92. I ended up paying for it before we left Silver. Later I told JP that mom's computer was now mine since I had to pay for his bill! I wanted mom's computer to begin with. But when I told JP I wanted it .. he balked, with eyebrows raised, so I relented and said he could have it. It wasn't worth fighting for. All of mom's pictures are on that computer though and we spent many hours talking together via the computer using email and Skype. It's just sentimental to me. The computer is a little under 2 years old (purchased May of 2012. I know because I ordered it. Mom paid for it) and cost a little over one thousand dollars. (1002.99 to be exact. Before the discount of 423.00 dollars.). If JP would have paid for his own water bill of 18.92 .. it would still be his! But it's mine now. ha!


The first day Cari, Tony, JP, Pat and I attacked the mess in the garage. To call it a mess is a gross understatement and I don't know how JP could not have been mortified with us having to clean a huge part of his filth. I honestly believe that MOST of it was JP's mess and not all just mom's as we had all thought at first! Yes, mom had stuff in the garage too but nothing near what JP had in it. So much tangled trash laying in mouse poop everywhere. It was very overwhelming. Cari has started a huge (and growing!) pile of stuff she has put aside for the flea market. We hauled 4 truckloads of stuff to the dump the first day. February 3rd.


On the 4th Cari came to the house by herself. Tony is a sick man and simply couldn't come out to help us. JP should have been there though. Cari, Pat and I worked until 5:30 that evening. Sore, dirty and exhausted. We hauled another 4 loads to the dump that day. Pat took Cari and I out to dinner that evening.


Before we came home on the 5th (It was snowing!) I wanted to get the utilities turned over to my name and set up on auto pay. I worry they'll be turned off on us and we need them on until we get the place cleaned up and put on the market. I paid JP's stupid water bill and got auto pay set up for that. I paid for his gas bill, 33.00, and got auto pay set up on that. I couldn't do anything with the electric until Monday. I was given a number and told I could set it all up over the phone.

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Monday, February 10th -

This morning I paid 61.91 for JP's electric bill. Actually because I was paying over the phone the bill was 64.86. Service fee for paying over the phone .. Kiss my butt! lol. Anyhoo, the service for his electric was from Jan 2nd to Jan. 31st. So I paid a total of 116.78 of what should have been HIS bills. He didn't have to pay for rent living in mom's home. All he had to pay for was his utilities, cable, net and phone. I'm really glad I told him the computer is now mine.

I was talking to Elaine (girlfriend) today and she asked what the Medical Examiners report showed for mom's death. It had taken a while for us to even get this report and I finally had to call and ask about it. Turns out that they hadn't even mailed us one .. as we had been told they would! I don't remember the exact day I called their office but the letter came stamped as January 29th. It wasn't too long after I called and requested I get a copy that I got it in the mail. The Chief Medical Examiner is Juan U. Contin of El Paso County, Texas.  The cause of death is listed as Arteriosclerotic Cardiovascular Disease. I'm not satisfied with this report. Mom had just had a full heart work-up and was told she was in good health even though she had atrial fibrillation that came and went sporadically.

Cari did finally get a hold of the anesthesiologist and he told her that Dr. Odocha wasn't following protocol. You'd have to go back and read this post HERE to understand all of tihs. Dr. Odocha tried to tell Dr. Rudd (the anesthesiologist) the he wanted to do the anesthesia himself. But Dr. Rudd refused to let him do it. Mom heard all of this and even asked them what was going on. What a shame she didn't just get up and leave the room!  Dr Odocha didn't even want to put mom to sleep for the procedure. He thought she should have the colonoscopy done without the anesthesia! It's my understanding that Dr. Odocha is being sued for malpractice by others. I keep thinking I should get a lawyer to take this case but I don't know if I'm ready to deal with all of this. My heart is still grieving and I have a ton to get through yet. 

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Wednesday, November 27, 2013

My Great Great Grandma Mollie Jane Kenney (aka Mary Jane)


Mollie Jane Kenney (also known as Mary Jane) 
She was born February 18 of 1876 in Kentucky - I don't have a death date.

She was married to a James Mynear. I've seen two different spellings for the last name of  Mynear (Mineer) and don't know which is correct. She and James had two kids Callie Dora Mynear (aka Babe) and Audry M. Mynear

I am not sure if James Mynear was Callie's real father or not. Callie did not take on the name Mynear so
either this wasn't her real father or she simply did not like him and didn't take his name. In Callie's Bible she has a lot of Kenney names logged but none of the Mynear name.

Mom told me that Mollie was always a happy woman and mom loved being around her. Mollie smoked a corn cob pop and years later mom wondered if she was smoking marijuana in her pipe. Especially since marijuana grew like wild flower in Kentucky. Mom says that it is through Mollie that we get our Cherokee bloodline. 

Here is what mom had to say about Mollie -
"Mary Jane lived to be around 90 ...I think. I don't know of any illnesses.
she smoked a corn cob pipe and liked her blackberry wine. she loved to joke around and absolutely did NOT take guff from anyone at all. Pretty healthy I guess. I've often wondered what she smoked in her pipe as she was always in a good mood. a lot of "tobacco" grew wild in Ky."


I have no idea who took this picture but I wonder how Mollie felt about having herself taken while coming out of an outhouse. lol! 



Below is Mollie Jane's Family tree line. And If I have this right .. she was one of  eight kids with her parents being Willis Kenney and Ruth Jane Feeback









Friday, November 22, 2013

Jellybean Street


Not a thought in my mind -
Clouds under my feet -
Just breezin' along ---
on Jellybean street!

* Mom - I hope the clouds are under your feet ... breezing you along on Jellybean Street. Save a couple for me, Cute!  :)


On this page I will include some of mom's sayings, bits and pieces mom scribbled down on paper. Things I remember her having said and the entries in her journal. Today marks two weeks of mom's passing. She passed November 8th, 2013. Not a day has gone by that I don't think of you Cute. :)  Jellybean Street was mom's own made up little poem. I found it scribbled down on a piece of paper stuck in her journal book, but I remember her telling me about it when she made it up. It later became a password she used. It shows her fun whimsical side and brings a smile more now than ever. It's a shame I didn't think so much about it when she first told me about it. It sure brightens my days now though! 

1. Mom often called me Sweet Tater during our Skype conversations. We talked every single day on Skype or Windows Live Messenger before it shut down. She also called me LoveLee. My middle name is Lee. She had other pet names for me too but Sweet Tater was the one she often used.

2. "This Too Shall Pass". *A favorite sayings of hers.

3. "Slow goes the go of the slow" - *a made up saying of hers.  :)

4. "Pink daylilies upon a slender stalk - Lilies of the Valley deck my garden walk." *Scribbled on a piece of paper stuck in her Journal. 

5. "Buttermilk Skies" *Scribbled a ways down on the Jellybean Street poem. Perhaps another poem she was thinking about?

6. "I plant the seeds God makes them grow - God sends the rain I work the hoe" 
 *Scribbled on a piece of paper stuck in her Journal. I Googled and found a bible verse that I thought was cool -  1 Corinthians 3:6-9

7.  Casa Blanca Lily -

Remembering  your exquisite bloom
Conjuring up your haunting perfume
Captive of your enticing power
Hot damn what a flower!!

*Scribbled on a piece of paper stuck in her Journal.  One year mom bought Casa Blanca Lilies for all three of us - Herself, Cari and I. There was a couple of years we all bought each other Mother's Day flowers. Lilies mostly and Casa Blanca was one of them.

8.  "Dew is to the flowers -- As gentle words to the soul." *Scribbled on a piece of paper stuck in her Journal. 

9. "there can be nothing happy for the person over whom some fear always looms". *Scribbled on a piece of paper stuck in her Journal.  

She also has this word in quotation marks - "Dionysius" ... I looked it up and it means - Greek soldier: Tyrant of Syracuse.  Tyrant - a cruel and oppressive ruler. 

Mom told me a number of times that JP wasn't always what he seemed. Not always so nice. He wasn't abusive physically, but he had a mean streak. I don't know if this poem was written with him in mind or not ... but I believe so. He wasn't a very loving man. He never held hands, hugged or kissed mom. She told me a number of times that she felt horribly alone and missed being physically touched the way dad (Ray) use to touch and hold her and cuddle and snuggle with words of endearment. She told me she had been celibate for many years and not by choice. When mom would try to question JP about it .. he'd clam up and wouldn't talk about anything. 

Mom took care of JP financially and told me she paid for most all the bills. He had a social security check of about 800 dollars a month coming in. I'm sure he helped mom out some but I now wonder what he did with his money if he wasn't helping her much.  He cared a great deal for mom I'm sure .. but I wonder if he ever really truly loved her. Mom never thought so. She had a fear of being left alone so she didn't want to ask him to leave. What a terrible way to live. To be with a person, your partner, for 17 years and never receive the kind of love you so desperately need and want. My heart breaks every time I think about it. 

10. "An obsidian visitor arrives - torrid - reveries distant - far from peace pleas - he burdens my soul ripping asunder my pitiful peace. oh, for a moment of pastel peace.  wrung me out - cast me aside - Caring not my soul has cried. Melancholy on the wind. an obsidian visitor arrives - sorrow in the grass murky water drowns my eyes - infecting with your poison disabling my mundane world and shattering the crystal peace I feed upon"

* that is so heavy and heart wrenching. I don't know what this is about. John Paul again perhaps? I'll never know.

11.  "Trampling the verdant meadows of my reverie".  *Scribbled on a piece of paper stuck in her Journal. 

12.  

"I can feel your pen upon the paper - Words you inscribe to me" 

"I caress the stars"

"When I smile and candy coat the pain"

"Ice cream and butterflies"*Scribbled on a piece of paper stuck in her Journal. 

13. "To be rich is no longer a sin --- it's a miracle!"  *Scribbled on a piece of paper stuck in her Journal. 

14. "Delirium brings comfort to the dying"  *Scribbled on a piece of paper stuck in her Journal. 




Entries In Mom's Journal -

The Book is Titled "The Sacred Journey - Daily Journal For Your Soul 2009"

There wasn't a lot of entries in this journal but I hope to eventually include them all here. I'm pretty sure the book was a used one she found at the Gospel Mission. It appears her logs started in 2010.

My own comments will be after an asterisk * 

On the first page -

1. "Bonnie's many faces & souls & hidden selves over many years - entries & moods - ideas, thoughts, bitchin' & singing & whistling."

__________

2.  Second Entry - Next to the word My Credo she writes: "Fairness - Honor - To thine own self be true."

Then She writes -

"Escape - 
Always escape those voices from the past - that trample the fallow fields of my fright ... of the scared little girl and the things that appear in the night ... in the dark ... in the stillness of shame."

* My thought -  I can't be sure .. but I believe that entry was about her step dad, Bull. He forced sexual acts with mom when she was just a little girl and he threatened her not to ever speak of them. Mom has told me in the past there was never any penetration but the humiliation and the horror and shame of what he did  left deep and lasting scars. She hated him the rest of her life.

__________

Third Entry - Next to the word Financial/Career  she writes: Forget it! Too late Maria!!

* that made me laugh Mom! 

August 16, 2010 - I really want to change these figures! Seeing how Jodi & Pat are becoming so healthy and taking better care of themselves really has inspired me.
Weight - 165 (OMG!!)
Waist - 37" (UGH!!)

__________

Fourth Entry - December 30, 2009

Next to the word Gratitudes: ---- I am most grateful most of all ---- for now and evermore ---- for my wonderful daughters. The daughters who define me, who give me reason to go on and make me want to see tomorrow. They are the flowers in my garden.

* Cute, you were the sunshine that we needed to grow on! You were the sunshine of my heart mom. I love you.  :)

On right side of page - 

December 30, 2009

I have the opportunity to live another month with a fairly healthy body and somewhat intact mental capacity :). I have the will to lose weight if I just put it to work as I did with the cigarettes. I want to get more exercise and get my body stronger for the time when I am unable to get around by myself and at least be able to help the girls drag my butt around the house.

__________

Fifth Entry - 

Next to the word Opportunities: For my flowers names - they must not go unnamed or unnoticed or uncared for. Their pictures will remain forever. Lets call them ..... 
Neptune Wind - Hot burning Osiris - 2000 degrees - 
Marmalade skies - Pulsar - Verdant Vortex
Creation - Planemo - a planet with no sun!
Big Bang - Chaos - Cute Chaos - Cherry Chaos
Super Nova - Helio Sun -
Venus Between Us! Cygnus (Swan) Osiris

Solar Flare - Nebula
Avocado Bravado -

Next to the word GOALS: Light year - 6 trillion miles a year

* Mom loved astronomy and she loved Carl Sagan and his show "Cosmos: A Personal Voyage" She believed in the Big Bang Theory.

It was only a year or so ago (today is 11/22/2013) that mom had told me she made her peace with God ... Did she still believe in the Big Bang Theory too? I don't know. 

I had to look up some of these words .. and I know it tickles mom that I did! lol.

Cygnus - is a northern constellation lying on the plane of the Milky Way, deriving its name from the Latinized Greek word for swan.

Swans - are bird of the family Anatidae within the genus Cygnus.

Osiris - is an Egyptian god, usually identified as the god of the afterlife, the underworld and the dead. He was classically depicted as a green-skinned man with a pharaoh's beard, partially mummy-wrapped at the legs, wearing a distinctive crown with two large ostrich feathers at either side, and holding a symbolic crook and fail.

Another description of Osiris - A god originally connected with fertility, husband of Isis and father of Horus. He is known chiefly through the story of his death at the hands of his brother Seth and his subsequent restoration to a new life as ruler of the afterlife.


Carl Sagan was an American astronomer, astrophysicist, cosmologist, author, science popularizer and since communicator in astronomy and natural sciences.







  • * np2nwnd :)  I love it Cute!

  • A quote my daughter, Lacey, just left one her facebook that I like -

    "Time Is Like A River - You cannot touch the same water twice, because the flow that has passed will never pass again. Enjoy every passing moment of life."

  • __________



    To be continued ...





    Wednesday, November 20, 2013

    My Great Grandma Callie Dora Mynear - Kenney/Howard (aka Babe)


    October 29 1900 - May 5 1990 (Callie was 90 years old when she passed)

    Link to more pictures of this Bible -  HERE

    Callie Dora Kenney (everyone called her Babe) was my Great-Grandma. While I didn't see her very often I do remember having visited her a few times with my mom and grandma. I've been a little confused by her last name. I know she later married a Howard when she gave birth to grandma and grandma's siblings. In her Bible she logs a lot of Kenney names. The Kenney names are spelled two different ways. I'm guessing someone else had also logged some of the names and just spelled it wrong.

    Callie's mom was Mollie Jane Kenney and I have James Mynear as her dad. I don't know if this is Callie's real dad or not. And I don't know if the name Mynear is spelled correctly. I have it as Mineer too. I don't know why Callie didn't take the name Mynear. Or why there are no Mynear names in the Bible. Perhaps she never liked her dad or James wasn't her real father? I don't know. In this Bible Callie's last name is logged as Callie Kenney ... the same as her mother's maiden name.

    Here is a list of all the names that was in Callie's Bible. Some were very faded but this is as best as I could decipher -

    Hanson Kenny - Born February 22 1898 (?)

    Huldy ? ( not sure of first name) Kenny - Born July 4 1899 ?

    Mary R. Kenney - Born September 11 1904

    Nellie Kenney - Born February 18 1907

    Lizzy M. Kenny and Lindsay J. Reno (?) was married October 20 1897

    Owen Kenney was married January 19 1898

    George Lee Carson - Born October 10 1906

    Aunt Masy (can't make out the name) Cook died March 17 1911

    Owen Kenney - Born August 27 1868

    John Lewis Kenny - Born June 20 1870

    James M. Kenney - Born May 10 1872

    Mary Jane Kenny - Born February 18 1876

    Liza M. Kenny - Born February 3 1877

    Alice Kenny - Born February 17 1879

    Harlan Kenny - Born May 16 1882

    Hattie Kenney - Born April 16 1885 (?)

    Audry M Kenny - Born October 10 1896

    Levy (Can't make the first name out) Kenney - Born July 14 1891 ? Can't make out the last number.

    Ada Kenney - Born November 14 1891

    Hazel Ray Reno - Born September 6 1898

    Malcolm A. Reno - Born August 7 1900 (?)

    John L. Kenny Died September 2 1874

    Alice Kenny Died April 20 1898

    Nellie Kenney died February 11 1908

    Owen Kenney died December 9 1908

    Edward Cason Born December 6 1908

    Harry falas (?) Cason Born July 11 1911

    Callie Kenney Born October 29 1900

    John S Feeback died September 29 1896

    Willis Kenney and Rutha J Feeback was married October 10 1867



    A little of what I remember mom telling me about Babe (Callie Dora Kenney), her mom (Carrie Mable Howard) and her dad (Pascal Hall).

    Babe was a big Bible thumper and this turned mom off from God and the Bible for most of her life as she said Babe "crammed it down everyone's throats". Mom says she belives it even drove Babe's husband away from her along with lots of other people. Mom did however tell me, just months before she passed away, that she (my mom) had made her peace with God. Babe always favored mom's two brothers (Gary and Denny Hall) over her. Mom had a lot of animosity towards Babe and often told me she was a cold hearted woman.  

    Although mom and grandma (Carrie Mable Howard) ended up having a good relationship years later and when they both were older .. it wasn't always a good one. Mom said she and her brothers were often left alone to fend for themselves at such a young age. They went without food many times and often had to steal bread from the store to eat. Grandma worked but liked to be in the bars when she wasn't working. This was after her husband, mom's dad, (Pascal Hall - my real grandpa) had died. At one point Pascal went to Prison because he wrote a bad check for a large sum of money. Pascal was a heavy drinker and would at times become abusive. or try to! Mom says she remembers when grandma would chase him out of the house with a broom or skillet in her hand or sling something at him. Grandma wouldn't put up with him when he was drunk. Mom says Pascal adored her (mom) and often splurged on her. He would take her for haircuts and out to get her picture taken. He'd buy her cute little outfits etc. Pascal died of on overdose of pills and alcohol. He was drunk and took too many of his prescription pills. Later, grandma would end up marrying one of Pascal's best friend that she met at a bar. Raymond Clyde Eaves, called 'Bull' by everyone in the family. He is the man I always knew as my grandpa.

    Babe was a seamstress in a factory for many years. She worked at Fechheimer's making mens suits and she sewed most all her own clothes. She sewed for others as a second income too. A very hard working woman.

    With WW2 jobs became scarce and many were laid off. Gramma (Carrie Mable Howard) had to leave to Michigan, from Kentucky where she, Babe, mom and mom's brothers were living to get a job as a telephone operator. She and three other woman lived in a tiny cramped apartment so they could make ends meet. Grandma left mom and her brothers with Babe and sent her money whenever she got a check to help support the kids. Babe sewed all of mom's and her brothers clothes. She had a garden and canned most all of her own food. It's a no wonder that Babe may have been a cold woman. It seems to me that she had a lot on her plate with her seamstress jobs, raising her daughters (my gramma)  three kids (my mom and her two brothers), gardening and canning. I don't know if Babe was still working at the factory when gramma had to leave for Michigan but even still, that was a lot of work for Babe to take on.

                                      
    **I found the document I was looking for where I had asked mom to say a few little things about some people in the family and this is what she said about Babe -

    "Babe..she was very BIG early in life ...really big...I remember her saying one time that the Dr told her to watch what she ate. that she was "kinda" diabetic. at her weight I could see why.  A
    nd she said...I don't want to go out of this world a piece at a time....so after that I remember her eating boiled chicken and veggies a lot. well we always ate lots of veggies anyhow. On her death certificate it says she died of cardiomyopathy. In the hospital her last few days...she had congestive heart failure. I don't know if she had afibs like me or not. she never talked much about her medical problems as didn't Mary Jane or mom. It was a private thing and they never wanted anyone to think they were complaining. They were proud old gals."

    Death Certificate - (click to view larger size)




    Tuesday, November 19, 2013

    My Baptismal Certificate -

    Do I believe in God? You bet I do! And more so everyday. I've had many of my prayers answered and on some occasions cried having known it was Him that answered my prayers. Some have made me laugh with joy having been answered so quickly! It's such an awesome feeling. God is good! I was baptized as a Southern Baptist but today I consider myself to be more of a non - denominational Christian.

    A while back I went on a search in hopes to be able to find my baptismal certificate. I know I was baptized in Albuquerque, New Mexico. I asked Lacey if she could help me with my search on finding my certificate and she called a place or two but we never could locate it. I had been baptized when I was living with her dad (Wayne) and his mom in Albuquerque. He remembered that the preachers name was Jamie Coleman when Lacey asked him some questions about my baptism. Wayne and I weren't married when I got baptized but I'm pretty sure I was pregnant with Lacey by about 3 months. So I found a blank certificate and just made myself one. Maybe someday I will find the original or be baptized again. Click on the certificate below to view it larger.




    "Then Peter said unto them, Repent and be baptized every on of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost." Acts 2:38 (KJV)

    A few of my favorite scriptures -
    Favorite Scriptures

    On Anger -

    Proverbs 15:1 - A soft answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.

    Psalm 37:8 - Refrain from anger, and forsake wrath! Fret not yourself; it tends only to evil.

    James 1:19-20 - Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger; for the anger of man does not produce the righteousness of God.

    Colossians 3:8 - But now you must put them all away: anger, wrath, malice, slander, and obscene talk from your mouth.

    Ephesians 4:31 - Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice.

    Proverbs 15:18 - A hot-tempered man stirs up strife, but he who is slow to anger quiets contention.

    Ephesians 4:29 - Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear.


                                                         




    Faith Without Works Is Dead

    14 What good is it, my brothers, if someone says he has faith but does not have works? Can that faith save him? 15 If a brother or sister is poorly clothed and lacking in daily food, 16 and one of you says to them, “Go in peace, be warmed and filled,” without giving them the things needed for the body, what good is that? 17 So also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead.

    Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.



    29 Then Levi held a great banquet for Jesus at his house, and a large crowd of tax collectors and others were eating with them. 30 But the Pharisees and the teachers of the law who belonged to their sect complained to his disciples, “Why do you eat and drink with tax collectors and sinners?”
    31 Jesus answered them, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick.


    * Dear Lord keep my head and my heart in the right place. Forgive me of all my sins past and present. Keep evil away from me and keep me on the path you would have me follow. In the name of Jesus - Amen.




    What's In A Name -

    Just because I thought this was fun and our names were darn close to accurate for a lot of us .. I'm going to include them here.



    As Jodi you are rather serious-minded, responsible, and stable.

    You have the gift of tact and diplomacy, and possess a charming, easy-going nature which endears you to others.

    You have a serious desire to understand the heart and mind of everyone, and could be very effective in a career or in volunteer work where you are handling people and serving in a humanitarian way.

    This name also gives you a love of home and family, and as a parent you would likely be fair and understanding.

    You remember the thoughtful little expressions of affection and appreciation that mean so much to others, and you have the ability to create a warm and loving environment.

    However, you tend to put things off and avoid facing issues because of a lack of confidence and uncertainty.

    You often need encouragement from someone before you can come to a decision.

    This name creates a generally well-balanced and healthy nature, but any weakness in the health would cause problems in the fluid functions, such as kidney or bladder trouble, overweight, or swelling of the legs and ankles.

    __________________________



    Pat with the name Thomas too:

    Your first name of Pat creates individuality, independence, self-confidence, initiative, and an inclination to physical activity.

    You are not inclined to merge your opinions and viewpoints with others, to accept compromise, or to work in a subservient position against your will.

    Your expression is invariably quite direct and candid, and lacks the moderating tone of tact, diplomacy, and friendliness.

    Others find it difficult to accept your domineering and, at times, argumentative manner.

    Your circle of friends is restricted to those of like nature.

    Once friendship is established, you are very loyal and steadfast and do not tolerate gossip or criticism.

    In your close associations and family life, there is little demonstration of sentiment, appreciation, sympathy, or encouragement.

    It is difficult for you to find the right words for such circumstances.


    Weaknesses in the health caused by this name centers in the head.

    ************ ALSO

    The name of Thomas creates a quiet, systematic, and technical nature and a clever, inventive mind, attentive to detail.

    You are attracted to working outdoors in nature, where you would experience the peace and serenity you so much desire.

    You would find electricity, electronics, and similar technical fields of interest, as well as computer, mathematical, and scientific studies.

    You are inclined to be quiet, reserved, patient, and conservative, preferring to test and prove everything to your own satisfaction before committing yourself.

    You like to finish what you start without interruptions, and also to have everything in its place and properly organized.

    You take life seriously and can be easily and deeply hurt and go into moods which can be quite extreme at times, causing turmoil and unhappiness.

    Finding it difficult to join in light conversation with those with whom you are not well acquainted, you could feel quite alone and uncommunicative.

    As a result, you seem aloof.

    Your limited verbal expression--except with those involved in your field of interest--makes it difficult for you to communicate your deeper thoughts even to those closest to you.

    Friendships and personal association are accordingly restricted, as well as business success, because you are over-cautious in venturing into financial risks or promotional effort.

    You could experience sensitivity in your heart, lungs, and bronchial organs, and also suffer from constipation or other ailments affecting the intestinal tract.


    __________________________


    Price with the name Thomas too:

    As Price you seek change, travel, new opportunities, and new challenges.

    Your active, restless nature demands action and you dislike system and monotony.

    As you are versatile and capable, you could do any job well, although you would not like to do menial tasks.

    Having considerable vision, you could be adept at formulating new, more effective ways of doing things.

    You could organize the work of others, though in your impatience to see the job done efficiently, you would likely step right in and do it yourself.

    You could work well in sales and promotion, and would not be afraid to risk a gamble as the name gives you much self-confidence.

    You do not find contentment in the routine tasks and responsibilities that are associated with home and family or with administrative detail in the business world, so you have to guard against frustration and even moods of depression over your personal responsibilities.

    The restlessness this name creates could find an outlet in caustic, irritable expression.

    Also, the intensity of your nature could result in tension in the solar plexus causing stomach trouble and, because you take your responsibilities seriously you could experience much worry.

    ************ ALSO

    The name of Thomas creates a quiet, systematic, and technical nature and a clever, inventive mind, attentive to detail.

    You are attracted to working outdoors in nature, where you would experience the peace and serenity you so much desire.

    You would find electricity, electronics, and similar technical fields of interest, as well as computer, mathematical, and scientific studies.

    You are inclined to be quiet, reserved, patient, and conservative, preferring to test and prove everything to your own satisfaction before committing yourself.

    You like to finish what you start without interruptions, and also to have everything in its place and properly organized.

    You take life seriously and can be easily and deeply hurt and go into moods which can be quite extreme at times, causing turmoil and unhappiness.

    Finding it difficult to join in light conversation with those with whom you are not well acquainted, you could feel quite alone and uncommunicative.

    As a result, you seem aloof.

    Your limited verbal expression--except with those involved in your field of interest--makes it difficult for you to communicate your deeper thoughts even to those closest to you.

    Friendships and personal association are accordingly restricted, as well as business success, because you are over-cautious in venturing into financial risks or promotional effort.

    You could experience sensitivity in your heart, lungs, and bronchial organs, and also suffer from constipation or other ailments affecting the intestinal tract.

    __________________________



    The name of Dustin creates a happy, versatile, and expressive nature, with good business judgment and a fine sense of responsibility, which should enable you to establish congenial relationships in positions of trust where you are dealing with the public.

    You have a clever, quick mind, with the ability to accomplish a great deal in a short period of time, although it is not easy for you to systematize your efforts.

    This name could allow expression along musical and artistic lines and gives you the desire to entertain and to meet and mix with people of refinement and culture.

    It also brings out your love of home and family, and in close association you are able to show understanding and affection.

    Others are attracted by your generosity and your consideration of their interests.

    Although this name is well balanced, if it is combined with a surname that is not harmonious, you would tend to worry and find it difficult to organize your efforts.


    Also, should you over-indulge in sweet, rich foods you could experience skin or liver problems.

    __________________________



    Your name of Lacey has created a practical, responsible, stable nature, and you desire to direct the efforts of others rather than to take order or ask permission.

    You have a determined, self-reliant, capable nature and resent any interference, although in your desire to help you are inclined to become involved in the lives and decisions of other people.

    You like to make your own decisions and to be the master of your domain.

    You feel a limitation in your own expression when it is necessary to reach another through tact and understanding.

    Although you are honest and fair, a directness in speech is a source of much consternation to you, and you often regret what you say.

    You also have a tendency to worry.

    It causes you to be too serious, and interferes with happiness and relaxation that comes with naturalness of expression.

    Health weaknesses center in the head appearing as headaches, head colds, and eye, teeth, ear, or sinus problems.

    __________________________




    The name of Jason has given you sensitivity and appreciation for the finer and deeper things in life. You can enjoy reading, study, and contemplation about many different subjects. 

    When your interests or curiosity are aroused, you work intensely at new undertakings, but your interests often wane when you encounter drudgery and monotony, with the result that you leave many things unfinished. 

    Your name has taken you into many bitter experiences. The greatest lack in your life is stability and peace of mind.

     A peaceful and quiet environment, especially out in nature, is one of your greatest desires, but you are constantly taken into chaotic conditions.

    Because you have high ideals and are a principled person, you have been disillusioned and disappointed in people on many occasions and have experienced much aloneness. 

    You are fond of outdoor sports, where you can find an outlet for your nervous energy. 

    Impulsiveness could bring frequent accidents and unfortunate happenings into your life. You do not like to be restricted or to have your freedom curtailed in any way. 

    You find it difficult to control your thoughts and could swing in moods from one extreme to the other. Your speech can become very critical and sarcastic when you are frustrated or crossed. 

    This name creates a weakness in the heart, lungs, and bronchial organs, and could cause heart trouble, pneumonia, asthma, or tuberculosis. It also creates tension in the nervous system, particularly the solar plexus and stomach, causing nervous indigestion and relative conditions.

    __________________________



    My Daughter-In-Law Dana -

    Your name of Dana makes you easy-going and refined, but detracts from your physical vitality. 

    You desire all the finer things in life--lovely clothes, home, furniture, and environment. However, procrastination is your worst enemy, and you find yourself lacking the ambition to make your dreams a reality. 

    People are inclined to take advantage of your sympathetic, tractable nature. You naturally attract people with problems who seek your understanding and advice. You can give good advice although it is unlikely that you would follow it yourself. 

    You would be most successful in situations where you can use your skills in diplomacy in handling people, but where you are not under pressure or required to carry responsibility and make decisions. 

    It is difficult for you to be individual and make your own decisions, for you lack self-confidence. 

    Your desire for sweet, rich foods could cause overweight, circulatory problems, or weakness in the kidneys.

    __________________________



    Love you Cute!


    Your name of Bonnie creates an intense desire for association with people and new experiences, many of which have been rather bitter.

    This name has given you a gregarious personality and a quick-thinking, creative, and versatile nature, but one that is unstable emotionally.

    You desire change and travel and would enjoy opportunities that allowed you to be creative and to act independently, rather than to conform to system and routine.

    However, this name does not allow you to complete your undertakings, as farther fields always look greener.

    Although you may appear confident and positive, you actually lack confidence and feel self-conscious at times.

    This name spoils patience and depth of thought, and weakens your stand in matters of principle.

    You are too open to suggestion, and thus you could become involved in detrimental associations which could lead you into by-paths of thrill-seeking or emotional indulgence.

    Any weakness in your health would appear in the fluid functions as kidney, bladder, or circulatory problems.

    or in a sensitivity affecting your stomach.